I got Mama kitty after work! I'm so estatic. This morning she outsmarted me and got the food without it trapping her. Charlotte informed me probably because the trap wasn't on level ground. Tonight I set the trap as soon as I got in from work. I went upstairs to see Tracy and see how the kitten was doing. Tracy wasn't home. I walked down the steps and saw Mama kitty sniffing the trap from the 2nd floor window. I watched from there. She sniffed the back, and tried paw at it. She walked around and went right in and I saw it shut. I ran down and she was in there. I was so excited! Charlotte knows people right down the road from me. They have a cat house literally. They own a house and bought one next to them for cats. Charlotte is getting her in the morning and taking her to Ucan. I couldn't asked for a better earlier birthday present. Gato was the last litter.

Gato went to his new home last night. He was eating on his own and using the litter box for the most part and she was anxious. I will have to check with her later how it went. I kept dreaming about the little guy last night.

Now I got a trap to catch Mama kitty. Pray I get her

My rent goes up $15 on December 1st. I guess I can live with it.

I've pondered for awhile and asked myself this question. What is God's calling for me?  What does God want me to do?  The answer came clear yesterday. 

I am to take care of animals.  God needs someone to love and nourish the animals he/she put here.  They are special to. When I left work on Friday and saw a cat on my car I should have known it was an omen. 

I get home from church.  My neighbor comes up.  "Miss Kelly, I need your help."  Mama kittty (community stray) had brought two of her kittens into her hallway.  Mama kitty came back to get one but never came back to get the other.  She informs me she can't keep him because she has bed bugs.  Oh great, I thought.  So I call Charlotte, she says she can bring me kitten formula.  She showed me how to feed him,  how to rub his gentials to make him go potty, and told me kittens sex.  He's about 3 weeks old.  Thankfully he is driniking out of a saucer.  I don't really have to bottle feed him. But he will need a home.  I can't/refuse to keep him.  I have 3 already.  I don't mind fostering him until he's old enough. 

My friend Jim was over last night, he kept calling me Mother Nature when I was holding the kitten.  I said "Nope just one of Mother Nature's daughters."  He kept saying you have a good heart Kelly. 

Grats:

• uniqueness of my apartment complex
• halloween decorations, including my own
• my cats
• the moon
• the crisp autumn air
• fuzzy sweaters
• warmth of my apartment
• job
• feeling positive
• wearing my pj bottoms that used be tighter
• dance
• Daddy
• today was payday and I had a little left from last check
• color of my car, it's like a tomato
• God's word when I listen LOL
• beginning colors of autumn
• compliments
• health

It's amazing when I'm feeling good, I don't post as much. I really need to post when I'm feeling good, read the good reflections.

I've been 90% optimistic, 10% pessimsitic. I will take that.

Some things significant in the past week
1. Mama kitty aka as community stray baby got hit by a car. Neighbor put note under my door. I got Chalotte aka animal rescue lady to get her. She took her to the vet and nothing they could do. She had broken back, and nerve endings gone to bladder. They had to put her down. We can't save them all, but at least we kept her from suffering. Mama kitty pregnant again. She's around for food, good time to trap her. However, that's aborting, however her kittens hardly make it. It is something that I'm pondering and can't seem to decide what to do.

2. Worried about Justin and his Dad. His dad has a rare form of cancer. Best case senario, treatment will make it go into remission.

3. Gardner snakes. One on patio door, Pickles bringing one in I had to rescue. He pinned Angelica's head and made her stay put why he had at the snake. Funny the way cats are.

I am sure there is more, but can't focus at moment. That's what I get for journaling to far and in between.

Lot of stress this past week from Pickles. Getting the bandage off, biting through a stich, ecollar not fitting, him getting it off, trying rewrap, kicking it off..and the list goes on.

I've done everything I can. He's running around on it, doesn't seem to be having in pain from it. He still has some stiches in it, and at this point, I'm washing my hands of it. The whole situation has consumed me these last few days. I've been zapped and worried. I need to take care of me now. Pickles you have sucked up enough of Mommy's energy.

I'm so thankful for those who have helped me during this. My neighbor, my Daddy, Charlotte for giving me back the $40 I donated towards Angelica's spaying.

I talked to Daddy about the comments made during the carpet cleaning, and trying explain it and he got it, I believe.

I'm broke this weekend, but thankful to have 3 days off work. I need some rest and a break.

I have been forced to quit smoking. I guess this is a good thing.

The government says no more flavored cigarettes except for menthol. When I quit smoking, I did so for about 4 months and picked up the cloves. Cloves are no longer made. They are now 12 in a pack instead of 20 and called cigars. They won't make cherry or vanilla now. They only make black and special, and I found both of those gross. So I got my last pack of vanilla at the corner store, and smoked them. Than I bought my old brand Basic Light 100's. Yuck! I tried American Spirit. Yuck! They taste nasty, rough on my throat, and just gross.

So I guess I'm mad at the government messing with my smoking preferences, but at same time forced to quit, which can't hurt me.

I could go on a hunt for my cloves and to tobacco stores, and smoke it until they gone. I don't have the convenience of the corner store, so why bother?

I had to stop everything I was doing and record this.

I'm in my bedroom cleaning. I haven't dusted off my drsser, altar, etc in some time. I get to altar. I pick up some things, and clean it off, tuck away a couple insignificant items, and add a red cross beaded necklace Phil gave me. Looked and ponder and found it fine. And I thought I will always have a witchy woman side to me. I'm new age Christian, chuckled to myself. And as these thoughts came, the song personal Jesus came on by Depeche Mode.

:) I am in a good place with my spirituality.

I will change up my altar just a tad to represent my many facets. It's my personal space, nothing wrong with it.

Standing at will call window, felt shakey, mini anxiety attack. I just prayed to God. Go my ticket, got inside, got something drink, sat down, felt better. I texted someone I knew who was going be there. Hung with him and his posse, about 15 minutes. Posse had neg vibes. Found my seat after a bit. Sat next to a nice couple celebrating their 4th Wedding Anniversary from Grace county Ky I think. Really enjoyed the show. Loved Godsmack so much more. Crue did the Dr Feelgood album and some of their hits. Funny thing is last time I saw Motley Crue was Dr Feelgood tour. LOL Damn I'm old. The headbanger came out in me...socialized, took lots of pics. I had great seats. The drummer of Drowning Pool was up in our sectiong greeting fans. That was cool of him.

Tommy Lee burned his hand. He was there, came out, talked to us and played the piano for Home Sweet Home. Drummer of Seven Dust filled in.

Now I'm home, sweaty, and sore as hell! When was the last time I head banged. My feet hurt from the concret. Nice bath and off to bed, and dream of my Wild Side. LOL